The Chain Reaction

A Chain Reaction is defined as “a set of related events in which each event causes the next one, or a chemical reaction in which each change causes another.” This is what I hope to accomplish with this blog. You see, I’ve been thinking about starting a blog for some time now, too long I would say.

Most writers say that the only thing you need in order to start is a pen and a paper (in this case my keyboard and screen). Everything else will follow. So with that out of the way, let me tell you what this blog will be about. 

I’ve always lived a quite life. I’m not one to start trouble or “stir the pot” as they say, so it is understandable that I’ve been branded a shy, anti-social, “weird” guy. We introverts often get mistakenly branded like that. The deeper issue with this is that people say it to you so much that there comes a time that you start believing there’s actually something wrong with you. And that unlocks a whole new set of issues for you.

It wasn’t until recently that I started to dig deep in a “soul-searching” journey that has led me to understand why I am the way I am. Yes, at 38 years old, I would say that I’m a bit late to the party, but, nonetheless not too late. And If I can help the younger ones with the things I have to say then it would be and added bonus to this discovery.

I care about many things, I just don’t always say it out loud. I know my likes and dislikes, I’m passionate about the little things that normally don’t get noticed by most people. I have a deep appreciation for life, nature, music, sports, building blocks, games, and being by yourself, thinking, existing, quite. it’s not weird, there’s a reason for me being like this. It’s not a mistake, I’m wired that way. I’m as capable and as important as everyone else, in my unique self.

I always try to play peacemaker (I don’t like conflict after all), and sometimes it’s difficult for me to set boundaries. But in time, in getting to know myself, I’ve come to understand from experience more and more about these things, and it’s been getting easier to do it and draw a line were I don’t get offended or emotionally disturbed when people try to over step that line and hurt me because of the way I am. I’m not going to lie, it still bothers me when people step over the line, but now I know better than to think that it’s because of me and not them. Now I have the emotional intelligence to brush it off and not let it take root inside of me.

Looking back, it might not seem like being an introvert is much fun at all. But I think the real issue is that we can get lost fairly easy in a world that is not “built” around us. We definitely have our place in it, but we’ll have to find ourselves first in order to get to that place that we feel like we belong to. And only then we will thrive.

For years I’ve fought with myself, trying to understand why I am the way I am, and also trying to find meaning for my life. A place were I can call “home”, were I can thrive and therefor help others do the same. I might actually become a counselor someday, but for now I’m excited and happy to have started building websites.

This is my way of helping others share their visions, words, the things that they do and love, with the world. I’m taking the best of me, of what I do and what I love doing, and using it as a platform to help others. 

This is what makes me happy now. And I’m just as happy in knowing that doing this I will be helping others.

Until the next block in the chain.

LJ

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